Sometimes I wish I could rewind time. Things were so much simpler back then.

Release.

I have many conflicting feelings about the man who was my father.
I won't mince words. He wasn't there. I did not know him as a person all that much.
I knew his voice and I knew his broken promises by heart.
But even with all the negative things I, and many others, could say about him, I still loved him.

Shawn McDonnell taught me to be self reliant.
An invaluable life lesson, but one learned the hard way.
Yet and still, I am thankful that he did his part to help bring me into this world,
and I am glad that I got a chance to talk to him before it was too late.
I saw another side, one that was so familiar it was scary.
The side that he gave to me, without even being around.
I just hope I can be a positive part of his legacy.
Maybe I can be one of the few things he did right in his life.

R.I.P. Oct 23, 1964 - August 22, 2008

Nails Did

I'm going to get a fill and a pedicure today. I effin love my nail salon with a passion. When I get old I'm going to kick it at the nail shop every day like the old men do at barbershops, just gossiping like crazy. Kim, A.K.A. the little asian lady who does my nails, is adorable. Everytime I come in she starts talking to me using all the slang she knows. She's always like "guhfrien! how you beeeen?!". Everytime I pick a nail color she either says "guh that is the bomb" or "guhfrien' come on now, you alway get that one". Whenever I'm around her I swear fo' Gawd it takes everything in me not to start talking like she does, but I think she'd be a little offended if I was just like "guh, you so craz-ee!" But anyways, she is just too cute! I swear if I'm ever famous she's going on the road with me and every time I go out on stage she's coming out to bust a rhyme or a move, or both if she feels the need. Well let me get down to the shop before I miss Maury time. I gotta see if Shaquan's baby daddy is really her baby's daddy. Just SCANDALOUS!